What a strange and surreal trip it has been

leaving California, the West slowly vanishing in the rear view mirror

the long long road

more long road

driving for eternity

stops for fuel

stops for food

stops for sleep

the continued drive, forever

my past leaving me

what's to come?

lay ahead, many lies ahead

who knows

strange passing faces

terrain becomes unfamiliar

going further than ever before

worried, anxious, excited

old thoughts kept under check

don't want to ruin this

want to give this a chance

landscapes rush by

brown

green

brown

grey

days slip in and out

feel culture change rapidly

Chicago

Indiana

Ohio

NYC

Astoria, Queens

stinky

dirty

HOT as fuck

sweltering

these days pass

now memories

seems a lifetime ago

slow acclimation

too slow

FAST acclimation

more culture shock

days pass, days pass, days pass

a new job

some new friends

a new band

am I the same person I was...

3 months ago?

6 months ago?

seems forever

suddenly...

it is COLD as fuck

snow everywhere

end new band

long walks in the morning

longer walks home at night

learn to bear it

not learn to love it

wonder if I can ever truly love a place again?

feel like I don't belong anywhere anymore

so transient

(see all previous Morninghater posts regarding NYC)

see distant change

see a future

AWAY! YES, GET THE FUCK OUT!!!!

will do, will do

Westward again

plans are made

planning

waiting

still waiting

waiting

waiting

waiting

waiting

waiting...